Why i love Matti so much still? One look at his pic and im crying.....ffs.
I love him even if he ignores me, and puts me, my friends, things he knows i like down.
How many bfs say "and?" when they find out their girlfriends are going to uni?
I miss him so much it's like a big slice of me has been taken out.
And i feel fucking stupid for saying it.
I'm never gonna be good enough for him, but i know as soon as i go back over easter the first thing i'm gonna wanna do is go see him. And he'll sit and ignore me and take the piss outta EVERYTHING i say/do. I'll get pissed off, vow (in my head) to leave. But i'll most likely stay (and we all know where that leads).
I'll be annoyed at myself for staying the next day, promise myself it won't happen again. Next night i'll be right their again.
Why do i do this to myself? I'm here because i'm running away from it. I don't wanna be trapped any more. What can i do? Fuck all. Thats what.
I just want it all to stop.